She can drive me f*cking nuts

There are times when my co-worker can drive me nuts. And we aren't even at work. We are at the bar with some of our other co-workers. I become so agitated that I can't even enjoy myself. I shut down. Stupid of me ofcourse. To become so agitated with her behavior that mine changes.

I'll set the stage for this... We both agree that one of the regulars at the bar is "eye candy." I'm not one to usually like a guy on looks alone, but he's "eye candy." I'd like to know what kind of personality he has, because that will prove if he's really handsome (looks + good personality = handsome), or if he's just "eye candy." He seems to have a fun loving attitude, with a good sense of humor. Sometimes a crude sense of humor, but I like that.

Anyways, my co-worker and I agree that he's "eye candy," the way respond to him is different. I'm not aggressive in my approach to guys. Never have been, and I wouldn't be comfortable starting now. She on the other, can be aggressive. Maybe "sly" is the better word. She's a flirt. An outrageous flirt from what I've been told. I'm clueless at flirting. Fucking clueless. Incredibly shy. I'd rather be personable than flirty, but watching her flirt with him drives me fucking nuts.

Here's what I mean when about being personable. I noticed he was limping tonight. I may have been watching the NBA East Coast Finals on the big screen at the bar, but I was also keeping my eye on him. He comes to our table and he's standing beside me and I ask, "is your ankle o.k.? I noticed you were limping." He proceeds to tell me that he's hurt his knee and he feels he's getting old. I say he's about 34. I know my question wasn't flirty, but it showed that I was interested in his welfare. Oh for crying out loud. Am I really that stupid? What guy is really touched by a woman who cares about his welfare? Why would he want that when there is another girl just two feet away with a clinging cotton t-shirt showing her D or maybe DD breasts. And she's kinda petite, so her breast are going to be noticed. You're blind if you don't. And, she's got the "balls" to lean over, look him in the eye, and ask "are you available?" (I actually didn't see this but she told me she did this.) She was actually referring to something else, but she wanted to see his reaction.

Maybe the "are you available?" question really works. I don't know. He may have joked with her but he was touching me. (O.k, only in a friendly manner, but I'll take that.)

If I keep going on like this, I'm going to compare myself to her. I don't usually win in comparison games like this, but I would have a good shot. (I think I have a better personality.)
Granted I'm not always the most bubbly person in the world, but I like to think I have a kind heart and I'm genuinely interested in people. And I don't have this god awful need to be right all the time. That's SO iritating.

I think I've fillled my weekly quotia on talking bad about someone. I'll stop for now.