Friday, September 23, 2005

On my mind....

I'll just get right to it...

1) I don't know how I can describe how mad I was yesterday at work. When I have an opinion on policies and procedures at the library, I usually voice them to my supervisor. He doesn't mind me ranting when I'm upset with patrons, other workers, and the management of the library. I don't normally voice my opinion to others. Why? Most of the people at work (upper management) already have their minds made up. Voicing your opinion does not matter. Whatever you say is going into one ear and other the other. No matter if they request an opinion. No matter the tone in their voice seems genuine. It's a bunch of shit they present. Do they think I'm stupid? Do they really think I don't know how their sugar coated words really are? I don't give my opinion for that reason.

Then what was I thinking when I voiced a concern at lunch. The head director of the library and the library's public realtions personel started making comments about the previous meeting they were in. The meeting consisted of upper management, and head library supervisors. I'm just a lowly reference librarian who obviously knows squat about working in the library. (I really don't, but from how upper management acts towards us lowly people, you'd think we were stupid.)

So the director and P.R. person (which if you met her you would wonder why she's in P.R. she seems mean to me) start loudly complaining about the meeting. In particular, they talked about good customer service. I take great fucking offense to what people say about customer service in a library when those preaching about customer service NEVER interact with the people who come to the library. NEVER. I would really like for those two individuals to work the reference desk for a day. In particular, the after school crowd. I've mentioned before the library where I work is a loud library (I think I've mentioned it). We try to keep the noise level down. Our library is very busy, and many of our patrons have a loud talking voice.

We have grumpy patrons that will never be satisfied. They complain about everything. To us. As if we are suppose to do something about it.

"I'm sorry sir, I can't change the color of the sky." Fucking deal with it.

No one has ever asked for that, but librarians cannot bend over backwards to do everything. As the director and P.R. person where talking, I kept getting the vivid image of librarians turning into doormat.

"Yes, I don't get walked over enough. Please stomp next time, to get your load of shit on me. Yes, that's more like it."

We have a regular patron who I refer to as "Grumpy old man." He thinks he knows it all. When he asks for help, he tells us how to look up information. Which websites to look up.

"Listen grumpy asshole, don't ask me for help if you can do it yourself."

(Shame on me, but just yesterday, I walked all around the library to the back entrance just to not come in contact with this individual.)

Then we have our "Foreign exchange student." I have no idea which country she is from. Russia maybe, or one of the neighboring countries. She likes to be demanding as expect us to get everything for her. She will bring a seat over, drop her butt down and get comfy. Normally I don't mind finding things for people. That's my job, and I like having the satisfaction of finding hard to find books and other items for people. But her demanding attitude, and prolonged attitude, really iritates me. While I'm working with her (and any other librarian working with her) there are people lined up behind her to receive help. And I do it all with a smile.

And we have a new grumpy old man, which the library supervisor says, "if you squint really hard he looks like Harrison Ford." My reply, "your squinting very hard if you see that." Just what we need, another grump.

I just wish, upper management would work a day or two at the reference desk. And don't tell me about customer service. I especially don't want to hear it from someone who has done P.R. for businesses. I've worked on a public service basis for many years to know how to act and how to treat the public.

(But I am sounding like a meanie here. But what are blogs for?)

2) Why do guys automatically think females are attracted to guys such as... Tom Cruise, Brad Pitt, Ben Affleck, Sean Connery, and Harrison Ford?

I once went to see Mission Impossible with a male friend of mine. After the movie he said to me, "oh don't tell me you weren't drooling over Tom Cruise."

Why in God's name would I want to "drool" over Tome Cruise. That guy has no sense. None. But then, I think scientology is a bunch of crap. Let me get this out of the way: I'm a librarian people, I don't believe in paying money for information. I think it should be free. Go ask a scientologist for free information on their religion (is it even considered a religion?). They may give you the basics, but for a fee you can become enlightened with knowledge that only comes from studying scientology. Crap, crap crap and more crap. Thank you for letting me get that off my chest.

Brad Pitt is no hunk. Neither is Ben Affleck. How much money do you think they spent, and keep spending, on their looks? Something a little more natural please. I don't mind seeing the wrinkles or laugh lines on a guy's face. That means they know how to laugh. Shows they've lived.

The cute guys aren't always the best guys anyways. A cute guy I see every Thursday night at the bar wholeheartedly admits he's a womanizer (and he has a girlfriend, how does she stand it?) I told him last night he looked as if he just got out of bed. His response, "What? Did you just talk to Jasmine?" What do you think Jasmine would have told me?

3) I'm done. I'm taking a nap. Have a good day everyone. And please over looking my writing errors. I don't feel like proofreading.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

An answer to Religion

From which state of mind should I answer this question? I can be very serious, or I can be absolutely sarcastic. There are times which I really like talking about religion, and there are times which I just don't care and want to say whatever. So you may just get a mix. Most likely a mix since my head is still spinning.

So many religions to pick from today. Which to choose?

"Extra! Extra! Get your religion here today! Take your pick - God, Allah, You, nothing, whatever, who really cares!"

Yeah, sometimes I get frustrated with the whole "whose religion is better than the other" routine.

"Well my God is bigger than your God."

"Well, my religion allows me to smoke weed."

"Well, my religion allows me to have sex."

"Well, well, okay, you've got me beat there."

I forsee a religion made up by the people for the pleasure of the people. I think this is a hedonistic world where people want to do whatever they want and they want their religion to fit into that mold.

"Let's see here, I want my faith to incorporate laziness, have sex as much as I want without the feeling of guilt, um, o yeah, i don't want my religion to have guilt at all, I want to do whatever I want without the consequences, and everyone is okay with that. Because everyone will want to be a part of this religion. And there's no 'Head' of this religion. There's no hell. Heaven will have all the men/women I want. At my disposal. I'll add more as I want, when I want it, when the time is right, and I don't care what you say about it."

"Oh, I want to add 'there will be no need to ask for forgiveness' because you are allowed to do whatever you want and there will be no need for forgiveness."

(Well, that's just crap out of my brian. Told you my head was spinning. Should have answered the pubic hair question. Which one was Cheetarah? I don't think I even spelled that correctly. Oh hell.")

"Oh, and I want to say all the curse words I can possibly say. Don't want to forget that one."

I don't feel like being serious about the religion question. Basically because religion is a personal subject with me. If I new for sure the question was asked in seriousness, I could probably answer it on some level. Not saying that I'm a religious fanatic. Browse through my blog and you'll see why. I can talk about vibrators and religion in the same setting. Masturbation is an interesting topic to discuss with teenagers at church. Though I was never involved in one of those discussions. Very taboo. Very hush, hush. Whatever.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Ideas anyone??

Does anyone have any ideas on what I should write about? My mind is drawing a HUGE blank.

Give me and idea

Does anyone have any ideas on what to write about? My mind is drawing a HUGE blank.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

In the Mood for Writing a List

Nothing over whelming is on my mind right now, maybe in a few moments, so here's a list of little things going through my mind...
  • Ohio still sucks.
  • My weekend to Kentucky felt like a full week vacation.
  • I didn't want to go to work yesterday because I wasn't in the mood to face people.
  • Kinda sucks to be a librarian on days like that because I must answer people's questions.
  • When people ask me if the library has a particular book I want to say, "Turn around take a look, the books are over there."
  • I actually threw a couple books in the garbage. A first for me.
  • I had the urge to throw almost everthing away this weekend when I returned home from Kentucky.
  • The University of Kentucky football team won their game against Idaho State.
  • Wow! The UofK football team actually won a football game.
  • I can't wait until the start of the College bastketball season.
  • Whenever I receive a voicemail from my mom, the thought goes through my head, "There will be a day when I won't hear her voice."
  • Writing that statement brought tears to my eyes.
  • I'm still waiting to receive a utility bill that says, "you've been such a great customer that you don't have to pay your bill this month."
  • I think I'll be waiting a long time for that bill.
  • My electric bill has gone up $22.00 a month.
  • My student loan bill has gone up $9.00 a month.
  • My gas bill has gone up $1.00 a month.
  • My rent has gone up $25.00 a month.
  • My yearly raise increased only $59.00 a month.
  • $22.00 + $9.00 + $1.00 + $25.00 = $57.00
  • $59.00 - $57.00 = $2.00
  • So technically, I earned a $2.00 raise.
  • And I didn't think I would get a big raise.
  • What was I thinking?
  • (I'm currently having a brain fart).
  • (Still having a brain fart).
  • (It's just not finished yet).
  • (Maybe just a little bit longer).
  • (Wait...... no, it's still going).
  • Oh damn it!
  • Get on with it.
  • "Yes mam!"
  • I hate being called mam.
  • Makes me feel old.
  • I didn't argue with my friend when she called me old, because at the time I really did feel old.
  • I'm only 28.
  • My friend is coming with me on Saturday to donate blood.
  • She can't donate, but she will be reading a magazine to me to pass the time.
  • This is also the chance for her to watch me turn white as a ghost if I pass out.
  • I did come close to passing out the first time I donated blood.
  • The stuff they pass under your nose to wake up really does stink.
  • Gross.
  • I'm heading back to Kentucky this weekend.
  • Yeah!!!
  • Open air.
  • Rolling hills.
  • Trees.
  • Horse farms.
  • I might see another international plane from Saudi Arabia.
  • Yep, I saw one last weekend at an airport I passed by.
  • A big double decker airplane with the Saudi flag at the end, and something written in Arabic on the side.
  • I've read that some members of the Saudi royal family likes to acquire horses from the horse sales in Kentucky.
  • It's rumored that the prince of the Saudi royal family left Kentucky just prior to 9/11.
  • I thought the rumor was that they left just after 9/11 when no airplanes were to be in the air for a couple of days.
  • I don't believe I'll ever know the truth about that one.
  • That plane was huge.
  • Made my sister take a picture of it.
  • It's a bad picture.
  • But you do see the flag.
  • (Get over the plane).
  • (Go on to another topic).
  • Did I mention I'm looking forward to the College Basketball season.
  • Watching the UofK men's basketball team play is one of my cures for homesickness.
  • (Taking a moment to stretch).
  • (Still stretching).
  • (It's not easy to type and stretch at the same time).
  • (Hold on a second).
  • ...
  • ...
  • ....
  • (Stretching over).
  • This typing about nonsense is getting kinda long.
  • For crying out loud, are you still reading this.
  • There's bound to be something else to read.
  • I never did finish the book Frankeinstein.
  • I don't think I spelled that correctly.
  • Shhh, don't tell anyone I'm a librarian.
  • They would probably expect me to spell that title correctly.
  • Oh well.
  • I finished the book titled "The Inner Circle."
  • I don't remember the author.
  • A nice political thriller where the protagonist was able to solve the crime without the use of law enforcement.
  • Didn't think that would be possible in a book.
  • I need to read more books.
  • I don't know if I'll ever begin Great Expections by Charles Dickens.
  • My cat is begging for attention right now.
  • I tried to listen to A Tale of Two Cities, but the CD kept skipping.
  • This list has no purpose what so ever.
  • I could have just written this "stuff" in paragraph form.
  • The fire department made a stop at my apartment complex.
  • This time it wasn't for me.
  • I'm more carefull not to lock myself on my balcony these days.
  • I came upon a huge spider on my balcony tonight.
  • Gross thing.
  • I wouldn't want to meet up with it in a dark alley.
  • One of us would have to open a can of "whoop ass" on the other.
  • I don't even own a can of "whoop ass."
  • Does anyone actually own a can of "whoop ass?"
  • Does a can of "whoop ass" actually exist?
  • Okay, I've got to stop this.
  • Go.
  • Leave.
  • Find another blog.
  • But visit another day.
  • Have a good day everyone.

Friday, September 02, 2005

Though the destruction of New Orleans is on my mind, I'm going to force myself to think on other matters. I've seen the news broadcasts, read the news articles, and my heart just can't take it right now.

So, I'm going to ramble about a new book that has surely pissed some people off. It's titled, 100 People Who are Screwing Up American (and Al Franken is #37) by Bernard Goldberg. And before you say anything, yes I completely know it's authored by a gentleman who's opinions are on the right. George W. Bush is not even mentioned. That's proof enough that it wasn't written by a democrat.

I don't agree with every person on this list. Some should have been higher on the list. The author has left out quite a few people - the televangelist Pat Robertson isn't on here. The U.S. Secretary of Defense isn't on here. But I'll give my two cents about some who are listed....

#99 - Matthew Lesko - this guy can make my job very difficult. He has made tons of money promoting his books that claim American's can receive money from the U.S. government to pay bills, start a business, travel the world to do research, pay off your mortgage, and etc... You need money for something, he will tell you how the U.S. goverment has the money for it. What a bunch of crap. Yes the gov't probably has extra money for some purposes. But you better be ready to jump through hoops to obtain it. If there really is a hoop to jump through. Many people come to the library wanting information on free money for whatever they need. Good luck finding it. It's almost impossible to find it. But, here's Lesko offerring his books that say "Yes! it's out there!" You wouldn't believe the amount of people who ask for his books. I show them the books and wish them luck.

#85 - The Dumb Celebrity
#84 - The Vicious Celebrity
#83 - The Dumb and Vicious Celebrity
I can't put into words how thankful I am that Goldberg included these in the book. Those included are Cameron Diaz, Fred Durst, Kate Hudson, Janeane Garofalo (mentioned 3 times), Alec Baldwin, Sean Penn, Martin Sheen and others. I can separate celebrities contribution to the arts (if we should call it that) and their political opnions. Sometimes I agree with their political opinions, but I just about had it when during the 2004 presidential election many celebrities attempted to tell people how to vote. And as many put it, half of American's are uneducated and stupid. I didn't realize having a different opnion was considered uneducated and stupid. Well, maybe I am stupid and uneducated. I mean, I have paid hard earned money to see some of their bad acting, and buy their terrible lyrics. I will exclude Janeane Garofalo from this last statment, because she does make me laugh and it's not her fault she was in the movie Mystery Men. Or was it?

#71 - Phil Donahue - considered one of the pioneers in television talk shows. I remember as a young child walking around my house to hear Phil Donahue on the television. My mom watched his show all the time. I admit, I haven't read the author's opinon on Mr. Donahue, so my only comment can be, I never liked his hair.

#53 - Anna Nicole Smith - if you've had the chance to see her reality television show, then you should know that I don't need to make a comment.

#20 - Howard Dean - I'm not going to say I hate this man. He looks to much like a friend of mine who happens to be a die hard Republican. Not something my friend is proud of, and he doesn't think he looks like Howard Dean. I'm afraid I offended him (my friend) when I told him the similarities was striking. What I am going to say is, I can't help but admire a politician who goes on television and does something unheard of with out the thought of his/her actions. He SCREAMS. The scream heard all around the political arena. And as for my previous statement about the "... the politician who goes on television and does something unheard of with out the thought of his/her actions," there's plenty of examples that will prove me wrong on that. A.K.A. - "I did not have sexual relations with that woman."

That's enough for now. Have a good day everyone.